Up To Here, I Tell Ya... Up To Freakin' HERE
This isn't banality such as what friend Brickmuppet talks about... that, at least, has a basis in reality. No, this is just flat out frustration, anger, and all-round poor temper, tempered by what appeared to be a moment of emotional insanity. For all of you that are interested, just click more for the scoop. For all of you that aren't interested, here's the bestest character introduction scene in anime ever:
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This is not, in fact, anything new. I am generally experiencing pain in some part of my body every moment of the day. Usually it's not high-level "oh god oh god make it stop" pain. But for whatever reason, probably having to do with spending eight hours of each weekday sitting in a terrible computer chair at work, my left hip has been causing me no end of pain. It makes doing anything involving said body part into a chore at best, a pain-soaked crapbox at worst. And then I get home, and after a sleeping for a few hours it's all better... at least, it's better until the next time I go to work. Or the next time I stand up. That's fun, too.
Coincidentally, I just got my very first invitation to join AARP in the mail today. There is a possibility that the two things are at least tangentially related. But it sure as hell didn't make me feel all warm and happy, lemme tell ya what. It made me feel old.
I needed a refill on my Keep Wonderduck Alive pills and the Keep Wonderduck Happy pills. They needed Doctor's approval, so I ordered 'em a few days ago and picked them up this evening... only to discover that I was only okay'd for 15 of each. This is my doctor's subtle way of saying "we'd like to have you come into the office". It's also a damn good way to shoot my wallet dead, because my insurance only covers one refill of a drug per month. Combine that with all the time I was sick at the beginning of the month, and March is when a lot of my annual, unavoidable bills appear... license plate renewal, for example... and my bank account is already weeping. I get paid on 4/5. Rent is due by 4/3.
Then there are the people I work with... many of whom drive me up a frickin' wall like I'm Peter friggin' Parker. Like the guy who literally took 27 breaks yesterday, if you count a break as any time he stood up from his desk and left the office for more than a minute. His desk is positioned such that when he stands up, I see him out of the corner of my eye and immediately look that direction. Or the ones I call the "loud twins." They're not twins, but they always take their breaks together, usually when I'm on my lunch break and trying to take a nap, and talk loudly enough that they can be heard in my team's work area. You're sitting two feet apart, why are you yelling??? All of this may sound petty, but I don't rightly care.
And then, after all the crap that went down today, I sat back at my desk in the uncomfortable chair, with coworkers that annoy the heck outta me nearby, and told my mp3 player to random music play. What did it cough up?
...and I just lost it, totally began bawling like a baby. Thankfully, my desk is very near the exit so I could get some air before anybody noticed me weeping at the complete disconnect between the song and my emotional state.
So yeah. Things not so good right at the moment. Whee.
Edit: Yeah, and I've got computer issues too. Forgot to mention that. It takes two or three minutes to load up a video file. Any player, any format. Friggin' joy to the world.
Somehow, that sounded very much like the way I spent last Easter. Except that the pains caused by an illness whose treatment required me to avoid my favorite vices for the duration, did somehow go down while watching a video on preparing scrambled eggs. Not enough to stop saying 'I'm dying here,' but a little. Of course, the most expensive and longest lasting my prescriptions also were the ones that were not covered by my prescription coverage.
Then I had to rebuild my desktop, which has cost me more than what I paid for the components during the initial assembly - only to find my copy of Windows 7 no longer updates at all. The downside of an advanced, non-Intel processor.
Posted by: cxt217 at March 30, 2018 07:30 PM (h8yX6)
Man, that's no fun at all.
I don't suppose after the rent you could afford to buy your own, better, chair? Most places I've worked wouldn't refuse to let you do it.
They might even get a better one for you if you ask.
Posted by: Rick C at March 30, 2018 08:19 PM (h8yX6)
Rick, I have talked to HR about a chair... they even told me to find examples... and then I was on the precipice of being fired and they stopped talking to me about it.
I suspect the stupid cost of some of the chairs didn't help, either.
Posted by: Wonderduck at March 31, 2018 01:36 AM (h8yX6)
I'm sorry. I, too, suffer from depression, and when I am in a funk, I usually look for something to laugh at (even if the humor is occasionally a bit...or much more than a bit...dark). If that would help you, may I suggest looking for pictures of Seb Vettel's current haircut? There are a couple in Red Bull's latest "Spy" slideshow.
(Note to other readers looking for a chuckle: If you always thought Seb was kind of cute, this may have the opposite effect. *sniffle*)
Posted by: Mrs. Will at March 31, 2018 08:03 AM (h8yX6)
To echo the above, that all sucks, I wish I could do something to help.
The doctor should know how your insurance works, I'd remind him and say you can't afford having to pay for a half month of pills. My Dad has to fight with his doctor sometimes because they try to pull stuff like this.
You probably don't have the money for it now, but, I bought a chair cushion for my home computer chair from Amazon - Everlasting Comfort 100% Pure Memory Foam Luxury Seat Cushion, ~$33 - last June and it's been heavenly.
I don't have nearly the pain you have but other computer chairs normally start bothering me after an hour if I don't get up and stretch a bit. I use this seat cushion and can sit for hours without feeling even a bit stiff.
Posted by: steelbound at April 01, 2018 03:57 AM (h8yX6)