December 03, 2018

Just Think What I'd Feel Like WITHOUT The Happy Pills!

Hi, everybody.  Wonderduck here, and I've gotta tell you, I'm not in the mood for fun and games.  Sometime Sunday I began to feel somewhat less than chipper, and by the time I finally went to bed I realized I was fully in the grasp of what Winston Churchill called "the black dog."  I slipped further and further during work today, to the point of very nearly screaming at the entire room to shut up, stop talking, nobody cares about what you want to say and for the love of all that's holy STOP SINGING!!!!!

But I didn't.  What's the point?  The talking will continue no matter what I say or do, no matter how much I complain.  So I slowly go deaf, turning my mp3 player up louder and louder.  At one point today, I very nearly began sobbing, simply because my claims had gone sour.  Frustration, and knowing that it's never-ending.
I know, shut up and blog.  Workin' on it.

Posted by: Wonderduck at 10:33 PM | Comments (5) | Add Comment
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1 Better out than in. Bitching about feels is content, too. As a fellow old person, I take dysfunctional comfort in knowing if I'm doing it wrong, I'm not the only one. And just maybe we're not doing it wrong after all.

Posted by: Ben at December 03, 2018 11:02 PM (4TRZx)

2 It's actually been a while since I had a really bad depressive episode...I think last one was the PPD after kid #2 (which, let me tell you, was not pleasant and is the real reason we are not having a #3), who is 2.5. If I knew what I was doing differently, I'd tell you, but I don't. Maybe there's nothing and it's just the calm before the storm, who knows. 

Best wishes for a quick recovery...

Posted by: Mrs. Will (Kathryn) at December 04, 2018 05:19 AM (7NrzJ)

3 Just a thought, and stop me if you've heard this one:  active noise-cancelling earbuds for your mp3 player.  They cut the background noise (singing, talking) and you won't have to go deaf from cranking the player output to cover the background noise.  Kinda pricy, but what's your hearing worth?

Posted by: JT at December 04, 2018 07:37 AM (arhpx)

4 Feh. Brain weasels + stressful environment = wholly un-fun. I'll keep hoping something will turn things around for ya, man.

Posted by: GreyDuck at December 04, 2018 10:25 AM (rKFiU)

5 I know exactly what you mean.  Just gotta keep punching, man.

Posted by: Ed Hering at December 04, 2018 03:53 PM (7sQEe)

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